Last week as I began to prepare for Ash Wednesday and the beginning of Lent (which starts tomorrow by the way), I decided to review my previous posts on the topic, as well as my journals.
2011, 2012, 2013, 2014 … It wasn’t a pretty sight.
I discovered an unfortunate pattern of pain, struggle and personal humiliation. I set lofty goals, make myself miserable in the process and ultimately end up needing to apologize to Tim on Good Friday for taking him down with me.
This year, I’m doing something radically different.
I’m not changing a thing: I’m simply going to practice my practice.
I’m going to meditate and walk, read and write.
I’m going to hug my family members whenever they get within arm’s length.
I’m going to teach my students and smile at friends and strangers alike.
I’m going to look for Love and share it whenever and however I can.
Whatever I am already doing that opens me up to God’s Loving presence in the world, I’m going to keep doing. Whatever shuts me down, I’m going to forgive and move on.
When I told Tim my plans for this Lent, he let out a huge sigh of relief and possibly even sent up a silent prayer of gratitude to a God he isn’t even sure he believes in.
If I was looking for a sign I was on the right track, that would have done it, but the peace I feel in my own heart is confirmation enough.
So whether you celebrate Lent or not, maybe six weeks in to the New Year is a good time to check in with yourself. How’s it going? How do you feel? What in your life reminds you that you are enough, you do enough, you have enough? I’m not saying you should add anything to your daily routine, but I hope there is at least one moment every day where you think, “This is exactly where I’m supposed to be.”
That, my friends, is a practice worth practicing. That, my friends, is a resurrection.
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This is really great. Very thoughtful words. Thanks for the post!
Great point of view…healthy and wise…love it!
Ali, you have written such a beautiful piece on Ash Wednesday and for all of us to think about regarding what we will give up for the season. I love thinking about not giving up but spending more time in prayer, it makes so much more sense. Thank you for your beautiful and brief words on the topic, you’ve given me a shot in the arm.